I realized that I still have this blog going and the last time I posted was 16 months ago. A lot has happened during that time, most of you already know the major parts. For those of you that don't or that (thank you) don't listen to gossip these are the stats: divorced, living in apt. and as of last Monday, lost car. It would be very very easy to curl up into a fetal position and wish everything away but no. This is my refining time. I guess the challenges I had before weren't enough to see what I'm made of. I am striving with ever cell in my being to move forward and at least act happy. I am at a place mentally where old very bad habits are trying to weasel their way back into my life. I worked so hard to get rid of those negative voices in my head and now they're rearing their ugly heads again. ARRRG! I don't want to blog about my pity party...that's not interesting to read so I'll try and change angles.
Vomitimus maximus!!! That should be the theme of my workplace. Each day is rated by whether or not I have the urge to or actually barf. There are only so many horrid smells and visuals one can experience before one's body goes into "reject all current contents"mode. I just keep on keepin' on and try not to think about it too hard. I am thankful for my job! I am thankful for my job! But really, I need a new one.
I am grateful that my children are with me and (relatively) healthy. I'm grateful that my job has allowed me some flexibility so that when there is an emergency I can take care of it and not worry about being fired but the actual working conditions are taking a toll on my health. Someday...
I am looking forward to the New Adventures of Old Kendall and a new perspective on life. Don't worry, I'm sure my sense of humor will return eventually! ;)
